Merasa lebih baik

Merasa lebih baik
Setelah tidak memikirkan sesuatu
yang dulu menarik perhatianku
dari keadaan yang menyedihkan

Merasa lebih baik
ketika semua jawaban yang ku cari
sudah menemukan titik jelasnya
sehingga ku bisa memutuskan pilihan

Merasa lebih baik,
setelah mengeluarkan semua rasa
perasaan abstrud dan aneh
lalu melepaskannya.

ya, melepaskannya
mengikhlasannya
lebih baik daripada menunggu
tapi pada akhirnya sia - sia

Bukannya ku benci padamu,
tetapi ku tak suka dan tak bisa
bila menahan rasa yang tak pernah berbalas
dan belum tentu jawabannya itu mauku.

Tapi,
inilah keputusanku yang terbaik.
walaupun kamu peduli atau tidak
Semoga kita mendapatkan kebahagiaan
yang diinginkan. Amin

High school : something

                   

      Akhirnya, gue bersedia menceritakan soal masa - masa SMA meskipun ya begitu. I think my senior high school life is gak sesuai dengan apa yang ada di sinetron - sinetron atau film - film. Meskipun begitu, gue berhasil bertahan dengan segala macam jurus, baik andalan atau ciptaan baru sehingga gue merasa nyaman dan sentosa.
         
        Awalnya, my high school wasn't my choice. All's because of NEM, I was there. At least, I could make my mom and dad proud of me. Gue harus berada di sekolah itu untuk 3 tahun depan dan mencoba untuk beradaptasi dengan baik. Terutama karena berasal dari SMP swasta yang diterima ke SMA Negeri. Honestly, I was surprise with their rules, habits and how to bla bla that It's really different than before. Seiring dengan waktu, gue bisa berirama sama dengan mereka. Selama Kelas 10, banyak kenangan yang gak bisa gue lupain. Gue masih bisa menjadi diri sendiri (beneran, ngerasa) dan temen2 masih deket sampe sekarang

           Pas kelas 11 dan 12, masa transisi soal sikap dan berperilaku. Gue dihadapkan oleh masalah yang disebabkan karena keegoisan ( ini jujur banget, gue orangnya sekali gak nyaman, langsung menjauh. Menurut gue I prefer to do that that force to be with what I hate)and misterunderstanding. Disisi lain ada satu peristiwa yang sebenarnya tidak diinginkan tapi justru jadi salah satu pembelajaran terbesar selama di SMA

                Meskipun gue sudah mengenyam masalah - masalah itu mulai dari pertemanan, kehidupan sampe orang yang disuka and I don't have a best friend yet in High School. I have friends who often hear keluhan mengenai diri sendiri dan ngasih really good advice yang bisa digunain di kemudian hari (yeay!) dan satu hal lagi, gue merasa bersyukur bersekolah di situ. Buktinya, selama disana bisa menjalani hari - hari dengan baik dan diakhiri lulus UN dengan nilai yang...... gitu deh-_-.

       
                         Tiba saatnya, gue harus berpisah sekali lagi dengan mereka. Dengan sekolah yang memberi banyak cerita yang membentuk gue seperti sekarang ini. Sejelek - jelek apapun sekolah gue dan sejelek - jeleknya masa SMA, gue bakal kangen sama hal - hal seperti itu. People said masa SMA paling berkesan sepanjang masa

                           Sekarang, gue dan teman - teman mulai menjalani kehidupan masing - masing dengan their own passion. This time, I want to continue my education in the University (YEAAAAY! FINALLY I TAKE OFF MY UNIFORM) Gue berharap semoga kalian masuk ke Jurusan di Universitas yang terbaik dan diridhoi oleh Tuhan. Termasuk diriku sendiri :')

Ini kumpulan photo pas perpisahan SMA :') 

Sekali lagi, gue ngucapin makasih buat semua yang telah mewarnai langkah - langkah gue selama 3 tahun masa. Maaf banget bila ada kesalahan apapun. Semoga kalian sukses. See you soon :') 

                       



   

packs of fun: January

My sisters! :) 

At 26th January: Me and my family went to Trick Art Exhibition in Grand Indonesia. It was fun!

LOL :) 

We had lunchand diner at kamikaze restaurant. That restaurant reminds me when I went to Japan a year ago. 

MY BIRTHDAAAYYY! a week ago, I am celebrated my birthday at home and school.

I am 17 now. My friends messed up my tableeee with my cakes. They wrote ' HAPPY BDAY ALISYA' 

I can't angry to anyone-_- 

When I opened my lunch box. There was a letter. I guess It's for.... them

and It was really them. I read that and laughed a lot. 

Your wishes are my wishes too. Thanks for a letter! :D 

btw: I want to move to tumblr because bloggery's new policy. But..... Soon and immediately.

Sementara

  Btw, Hello January 2013! :)


                    Sejujur jujurnya, tahun kemarin sering banget yang namanya ngeluh. Banyak masalah yang mesti dihadapin di dua ribu dua belas. Kesimpulannya sih.. kejadian beberapa tahun ke belakang kerulang lagi dan itu udah diprediksiin sebelumnya. Rasanya itu... GILA UDAH BAGUS2 NGINDAR TAPI GAK BAGUS JUGA. Bagaikan jari tengah sudah siap menunjukan aksinya.... Kesal tingkat dewa. Dan hampir nangis cuma gara gara GITU doang. Keadaan dan perasaan berbeda, bro....

              Gue tahu kok menjadi sebuah pendengar cerita yang monoton, objek yang sama itu ngebosenin dan hal yang menyebalkan. Pernah menjadi seperti itu dan sekarang subjeknya. Bahkan lebih lama. Ya... This is me. Kalo gue deket sama orang ya.... gue akan mencurahkan semua yang gue kesel ke mereka. Namun, gue gak peduli bahwa apa yang diceritakan berinti sama. Sehingga mereka menjawab seperti mereka bosen dengan itu. Semakin tinggi tingkat kebosanannya, maka gue terpaksa melakukan itu

                 Gue melakukan ini karena pikiran gue tentang how are they feel itu makin memuncak dan mungkin makin nyata. Sebenarnya tujuannya bukan karena pengen mereka mengerti gue sedangkan diri sendiri bisa ngelakuin 'semau gue'. Alasannya.... terlalu panjang dan gak penting untuk dibahas. Pokoknya ajang mengkoreksi diri sendiri. Karena itu lah pandangan gue yakni " mereka datang membawa pesan padamu lalu mereka akan pergi dan menikmati dunianya sendiri. Mereka hanya mengenalimu sebagai orang yang mengisi buku kosong hidupnya."

                 Entahlah gue gak tahu lagi. Tapi masih berharap bahwa target yang dijalankan dengan berhasil.


A Short Story
Jakarta, 08 january 2013
           

BandungTrans

    Hi! I arrived in jakarta from Bandung yesterday. Me and family stayed in Trans Hotel during Idul Adha holiday. From you who don't know about that. I will explain, Trans Hotel is located in Trans Studio Mall Superblock ( Including Mall, Trans Studio, Mega Bank Building and 2 hotels, Trans and Ibis) FYI, Trans Studio Mall is new name of Bandung Supermall (BSM). So, don't be misunderstood. Btw, I will post some photos during my holiday. Sorry, If I don't show the room)

           

100th POST Plus weeks photos

Alhamdulillah, 100 posts in one and half year. Yuhu! I made very simple own letter this morning. Before that, I thought to make it from before new year as student begin. But, Lazy again. You know lah HAHA. When I wrote this ( that captured) my handwriting not really bad, Is it? But now, Don't care about that!

1,5 Years? I don't really feel that. I make a blog to posting those unforgettable post or reminding what was my talent, someday when I flashback the past post or to developing my talent to write and photography or share my love to music. All of those are my goals. To write, I praise to many people who become my inspiration. I just say Thank you including my family :') 

I really sorry If I have many mistakes in writting during that time. I always want to better blogger! :-)

By the way, I want to share you many photos at last 1,5 weeks.

At Last Thursday, I went to Cibubur Junction to reunion with my JHS Pals, ORS. I used my fam's Instax camera to took with my bestfriends, Aliva and Anggieta (Just 2 because many reasons). Honestly, I never meet Aliva for six months while Anggieta for eight. I very happy to hang out with them.

Ps:  At the first six until eight months when I write my blog, almost 85% is about absoloutly my Junior High School's life including 50% about my pals, ORS. You don't believe? Check!.  

Top: My self potrait (s) with Instax

Bottom: Singapore Trip. First time trip and first time fly with plane ever!

My self potraid again this afternoon hehe -__-v

First time for 11th grader officially since first day at school July 16th

This photo was taken by my lil sister, Rania! :D

I love this sweeter because of the colours. 

Sweeter by Liz Claiborne

Hi! I want to introduse herself, This is my second also lil sister who took one of my photos here, Rania! 

Taken by me

ps: 

First, Happy Fasting, all of Muslim's people in the world, Starts tomorrow or after tomorrow. Including me. 

I hope It's bleesing month, Amin  :) 

Second, I must sreaming the last episode of Korean Drama, I do I do, Tonight

Third, Korean Drama Marathon~~~ Can't wait to do this tomorrow also my first day fasting

See ya! :) 

A Trip with 58 2014 and Crefoxh

        I feel I get a ' energy' when I write this. It means I really want to share my different sentation in Study Tour to Bandung, West Java. Why I say different sentation? Because first, I usually go to there always with My parents ( I can go 3 - 6 times each year)  but at that time, with my schoolmates ( Say Hallo). Second, I go to different place. However, It just a day we sent it :( ( kurang asik ah!). Back to Topic, Me and My Classmate went to Bandung on Tuesday, May 22 th 2012

           That day was starting by beautiful early morning. me and my schoolmates must come at 5 am. It really disapointing for me. Gue pikir toh bakal ngaret walaupun di jadwal setengah 6. So, I went to school at 5 am and It takes 10 minutes from my house to school. WOW! Iyalah, berangkat jam segitu mah pasti sepi -__- At 5.15 am, I arrived. My prediction is TRUE! Ngaret sampai jam 6! 

               Finally me and my classmate departed at 6 am. During the trip from jakarta to Bandung that needs 3hours including Rest time, me and my friend, Rahmi tooks many photos together. She is most photogenic I ever seen in Senior High School. Moreover, we sang a song and many things. As usual, I always listening to Music for avoid BOREDNESS!

         

TADA This is my LKS or students task paper. 

At Bus with rahmi :). She is an  amazing photogenic.

 It proved with every she takes, she upload at facebook (HAHA PISLOVGAWL)

   We Arrived at Bandung after super flat on the way. The first place that we visiting was Sasana Budaya Ganesha or Sabuga Science Center. I thought I could see Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB) Campus. However, It didn't because we didn't come there :(  But, This place is located on ITB Complex. There are many technology experiments and 3D films with dome screen. I don't really enjoy this destination but I love the wind, cool! :-)

I weared my favorite red shoes!

Shoes: Pepsi ( Itu nama merek sepatu, beneran deh. Jangan salah arti sama merek minum)

                            Our Second destination is Geology Museum. We got more knowledge about Earth Science. For me, It was my second time I visit. But We took very short time in there. 

After in Geology Museum and got super flat lunch, We visited Saung Mang Udjo. It is a house of Sundanese art. That pefromance was Amazing and Great!!! :-) We also had a change to play Angklung and Dance Together. We took many photos 

Mask Dancer

The Children played Angklung. 

Gue Dapet nada sol.

I get my favorite number :') 

Then, we bought some souvenirs in Cihampelas. But, we gave a very short time and didn't allow us to go to Cihampelas walk. But, some of my friends were against and they went to there. After that, we left Bandung at 5.30 pm. Tired but happy. However, Gue belum puas sama tripnya. Btw, Thanks to 58 2014 and Crefoxh. Kisses and Hugs! 

Favorite scenes: WILD ROMANCE

 HUAAAA, After almost 2 months this post drafted and still in my brain, finally it's time to share. This is my 2nd post about my favorite scenes in my most favorite drama. The first is CLTCL ( Thai Film) click this . Now, It is a Korean Drama. This drama showed from January until February 2012. YOU KNOW WHAT IS IT? It's Wild Romance

  That drama was about a love story between a football Player, Park Moo Yeol ( Lee Dong Wook) and A Bodyguard- Judo Former Yoo Eun Jae ( Lee Si Young). This story began with ( Source: DramaWiki) ps: I change many words because of wrong words.

"Everything starts on the birthday of Eun Jae's dad. Eun Jae ran into Park Moo Yeol, who is the 2nd baseman of 'Red Dreamers', when she is drunk. Eun Jae who is a fan of 'Blue Seagulls', starts a fight with Moo Yul who led the 'Red Dreamers' to victory. The next day, internet is on fire with the video called 'Humiliated Park Moo Yul'. Because of this video, career of both Moo Yul and Eun Jae, who recently got a job as a bodyguard, are in danger"

Continue by mine, After that, Park Moo Yeol said that Eun Jae is his bodyguard and that video recorded when she was giving a self-defence demonstration to him. Therefore, Eun Jae becomes the ' REAL PMY Bodyguard'. Their love story is begin...... especially when Kang Jong Hee ( Jessica Jung or famous as Jessica SNSD) comes back from England and showing in PMY's life again. Btw, I will show you what are Favorite scenes of WL ( my version):

1. This is the first scene which I watching for first time in this drama. I am bored at that time in a morning then I was watching KBS world at that time and I watched this ( Episode 2)

This scene is when PMY and YEJ locked in a garage then they went to out from that place

I really love them when they quarrel

2. In same episode with number one, the arrogant man PMY challenged Eun Jae to play baseball

if she get 3 strikes, she must wear sexy dress and if she can play baseball,

PMY must wear it. ( wear sexy dress in cold weather? -___-)

3. Episode 8 or 9. Gue bilang ini episode paling galau and The ' Love' feelings is begin from this episode.

“If destiny does exist… My destiny would be you.." Eun Jae 

Lee Dong Wook is HANDSOMEEE *brb yelling*

4.  Maybe It is episode 15 (hah is that true?) . I love it! :-)

5. It was a last scene of last episode ( episode 16) nooo before a last scene, I mean. 

CUTE MOMENT!!  While they pratice baseball, Moo Yeol said, " You don't need to afraid, tell me what you say and I promise, I don't lie to you" then  she asks him how he knew it was her. He bends over her shoes and we get a nice flashback of the shoes. :-)) 

OTHER MY FAVORITE SCENES

Eun Jae's dad and younger brother reaction when they heard that

Mu Yeol says ' I like You' to Eun Jae

LOL

A COUPLE. My comment is.... Funny :) 

A Tittle is... " He will comeback" 

Weird but.. I think It makes me say OMG... YOU!

I will miss Kang Jong Hee :) 

I will miss these couples so much! The ending is very beautiful :) 

Sorry for bad grammar XOXO

Source Photo: Tumblr and Google Picture Search Engine

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